Thank U Next Challenge

Be honest: clicking on this post, you were either attracted by the title or Kris Jenner slaying… or maybe both. I don’t know how this post idea came to be, or how good it will turn out. I decided to turn it into a little challenge of sorts. I haven’t seen it anywhere online, so let’s just assume I’m the one who created this challenge (you’re welcome).

So here are the rules:

  1. Come up with you’ve decided to say “thank u next” to and explain why.
  2. Tag 5 people to participate in this challenge
  3. Make sure you include ‘thank u next challenge’ in the post tags and title your post #ThankUNextChallenge and the following image as your featured image:

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Without wither ado, here are the ten things I have bid farewell to:

  • Bags I like but don’t wear. After doing my yearly new-year declutter, I found bags I didn’t know I owned, bags I no longer wear, and especially, lots and lots of tote bags. I gave 70% of these bags to my sister, mother and charity. Felt too great seeing the bottom of my closet clean!
  • Clothes that don’t fit. I kept some of these clothes because I thought they would be of motivation for me to lose weight… they weren’t. They were just filling precious space in my closet or drawers.
  • Critical friends. I’ve no time for toxicity in my life anymore. Constructive criticism is fine, but bombarding me with how I should do this and that without a valid reason is not my mojo.
  • Beauty products I no longer use but MIGHT use. MIGHT is no longer a word in my vocabulary when it comes to beauty products. Either I use it or I don’t. An extension to this are products that have expired or are close to expiring.
  • TV shows I lost track of. A few years back I must have been watching ten episodes a day. Yes, people, TEN. DAILY. After a while, I just lost track of them and just gave up. I have started rewatching some of them, but the rest are now in my archives covered in cobwebs. Before, I had an Excel sheet I barely updated, but now I keep track of my series using TV Time on my Android phone.
  • Copies of CDs and DVDs. If I had to sell all the copies of movies and albums I have, I’d be rich. We live in a world of Spotify and Netflix, so I don’t really need any of them. In the recycling bin, they go! (P. S. I have kept all original albums and DVDs because they’re precious).
  • Old souvenirs and trinkets because why do I need three different souvenirs with no real sentimental values or idea as to who gave them to me? I set them aside and gave some to my mother to keep in her souvenir cabinet, some others that were in good conditions were given to a friend who sells things at a car boot sale for charity.
  • Songs I like but always skip on Spotify. I was growing tired of skipping the same songs over and over again. I had a playlist with around 10,000 songs at one time, most of which were full albums. I didn’t listen to half of these albums so I finally bid farewell to them.
  • Mementos that were once good but aren’t anymore. I don’t need to keep nice -looking cards from a toxic ex or my O’level timetable because it reminded me of the first major exams of my life. Instead chose to Marie Kondo all mementos and ask myself if they bring me joy. If not, then off they go!
  • Mobile apps I only used once, and that includes shopping apps like Asos and eBay. Most of these apps were games I liked playing and then the hype died down and so did my enthusiasm.

For this challenge I tag:

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2018: A Summary

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Ever since I started my blog, I have come to realise how bogus the whole ‘new year, new me’ theory is. if you want to change, or fix something, don’t wait until the end of the year to do so! Start at once! Which is why, like last year, I decided to add a sarcastic ‘new year, new me’ meme. So seriously, do NOT make it happen, guys.

But this post isn’t about that. This post is all about celebrating the good, bad and in-betweens of my crazy life, starting with…

  • E V E N T S

Let’s face it: the biggest event this year had to be appearing on TV, which I documented here. It was honestly the biggest thing I’d done in my entire life thanks to a dear friend of mine (Kelly, if you’re reading this, love you girl xxx). It’s even bigger than meeting the President at an event and giving a talk at University, and I hope things only get bigger from then.

I also saw the Kaiser Chiefs live with my sister. I’d been buzzing about the event since I bought the tickets. I was front and centre, sang at the top of my lungs to all the songs and even grabbed the singer’s hand at one point. Life. Made.

  • L O V E

Almost three years with the man I want to spend the rest of my life with ❤ I cannot wait to see what our future holds for us. He makes me comfortable being who I am, he never judges me and he always stuck with me even at my worst.

  • M Y  T O P  1 0  M O S T  L I K E D

Beauty Products I LOVED in 2017

My Journey to Alcohol Abstinence

Mazia’s Favourites Subscription Box – UNBOXING

REVIEW: Holler and Glow purrfect pedi Sock Mask

REVIEW: Charcoal Teeth Whitening 2/5

What I’ve Learnt during my First Year of Blogging

Why ‘Stand by Me’ is the best coming-of-age movie

BeYOUtiful – Week #17

August Favourites #8

Mental Health Stats

  • F U T U R E

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What does 2019 hold for me? Another year of ups and down, blogging events (please invite me, I get lonely!), new friends (talk to me, I get lonely about this too!), collaborations, wishlists, hauls, MEETING TOM HIDDLESTON, HARRY JUDD & JAY MCGUINESS, more education, more courses, more love, more hate, more loss.

You know, like every year.


With this, I bid this year farewell. You were a pain, but also a good kind of pain, you know? This is the last post for the year so I will see you all in 2019! Happy new year!

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The Versatile Blogger Award

Greetings beautiful friends!… I’ve been nominated for The Versatile Blogger Award! This makes it the SECOND blogging award nominee! Many thanks to Katie from Katie Rose Loves for nominating me. Go check her out and give her a follow!

The Rules of the Versatile Blogger Award are…

  1. Thank the person who gave you this award. Include a link to their blog.
  2. Nominate 15 bloggers for the Versatile Blogger Award
  3. Tell 7 things about yourself.

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Mystery Blogger Award!

Hello my beautiful friends! It’s been several days since my last post, but I’m back… and with a blogging award nomination! I would like to thank my friend Betina for nominating me.

Okoto Enigma is the creator of this award!

RULES FOR THIS AWARD:

  • Put the award logo on your blog.
  • Post the rules.
  • Thank the person who nominated you and provide a link to their blog.
  • Mention the creator of the award and provide a link to their blog too.
  • Tell your readers three things about yourself.
  • Nominate 10-20 people for the same award.
  • Notify the nominees by commenting on their blog.
  • Ask your nominees 5 questions of your choice with one weird/funny question.

3 Facts

  1. If I wasn’t currently an LSA, I would be working in media or studying further something related to media
  2. My most prized possession(s) would probably be my non-fiction collection of books
  3. I was always the dumped one in a relationship

5 Questions: Answers

  1.  Sea or forest? I love nature, and it’s going to be very hard for me to choose. Since I live on an island and the closest thing to a forest is Buskett, then I’ll choose ‘forest’
  2. Your favorite childhood movie? I saw a lot of movies growing up, but the ‘Home Alone’ movies with Macaulay Culkin were my sh*t. I loved him, I loved the movie plots, and I miss movies like those
  3. McDonalds or Burger King? Burger King for the chicken burger, McDonald’s for the rest
  4. You’re nr 1 on your travel bucket list? Liverpool and New York City
  5. First thing you do if you won 1 mill euro? Travel with half of them, the other half would go to charity

5 Questions

  1. Your favourite season in terms of fashion?
  2. If you were any celebrity, dead or alive, who would it be and why?
  3. One artist/band you want to see live?
  4. How accurate is your star sign?
  5. Favourite subject when you were in school (or if you still are, your current favourite)

10 Nominees

  1. Style in Transit
  2. Caroline: Post-Grad
  3. Kezzie’s Corner
  4. One Chick and a Yorkie – one of my first commenters/follows on my blog, and I freaking love her! ❤
  5. Dive Inside
  6. Scrabbled Rambles
  7. Smashing Darling x
  8. As told by Jade
  9. Lola.Lolita archives x
  10. Style Syco

Banggood Wishlist

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Goooooooood afternoon my beautiful friends! And welcome to yet another wishlist. Can you tell I’m a dreamer with all these wishlists? I bet! Today’s wish list was brought to you by the great people from Banggood.

I’ll be honest, I’d never bought from this website before, but after seeing the things they sell, I made this wishlist with all the things I found amazing from the website.

Banggood is currently celebrating their 11th anniversary, and have these bomb promotional activities going on:

So without further ado, here is my wishlist…

 

 

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  3. https://goo.gl/W3GVYJ
  4. https://goo.gl/3ipSCb
  5. https://goo.gl/pYxMgh
  6. https://goo.gl/MQFaZ5
  7. https://goo.gl/yQVkVa
  8. https://goo.gl/62UCkm
  9. https://goo.gl/mjc6rj
  10. https://goo.gl/TsiGvd
  11. https://goo.gl/csyKQ7
  12. https://goo.gl/DjvezA
  13. https://goo.gl/FAuqfe

/// Number 13 is a bonus because it took me a while to decide between which dress to include, whether it was number 12 or 13… so I made the decision to include both!

As usual, I included a variety of items, spanning from clothes and beauty products to jewellery and accessories. Which of these items did you like? Check out their promotional links above for amazing offers for their eleventh anniversary!

Related: Shein Wishlist / Zaful Wishlist / Romwe Wishlist

 

 

#ClaireNotes – August 2017

There were two major things that happened during the month of August, one of which is probably the opportunity of a lifetime…!

#IamARTEMISIA

Hands down the biggest opportunity to date involving my blog is when I was asked by the Network of Young Women Leaders to take part in an exhibition in collaboration with the amazeball that is Steven Levi Vella called #IamARTEMISIA. For those who don’t know who Artemisia is, you can read her story here.

Being ong of the 100 ‘Remarkable Women’ that came from all backgrounds and occupations made me so proud of being alive in that moment. I also struck a conversation with one of my inspirations, Tamara Webb, who’s a popular local photographer/fitness queen, who was also part of the exhibition herself. Check out the selfie I took with her here!

 

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Retail no MORE!

I know what you’re thinking… wasn’t it just last month that you started working in retail? And you already gave up?! Let me stop you there: I haven’t given up. I needed some money to help me with my car lessons, which are soon coming to an end as I will be applying for both the theory and practical tests very soon, and the rest of the money that I was saving over the past several months is going towards the Car Fund (ie. to buy my first car!)

But a lot happened… I was working during the day from 8am til 1pm with children. Okay, so that’s only 5 hours for you, but imagine five hours of running after 6-year old children who think you are a zombie and so keep pretend-punching you all over your body to pretend-kill you.

Yeah. Thought so.

So after a month, I had to say goodbye to the staff I worked with, who were super nice and understanding about my situation. I explained that the day job had to take priority over the evening job because it could boost my full-time job résumé.

Dogs and Horses

If I had to describe Thursday 24th August on one word, it would be: HEAVEN. I had an outing with my students and two other classes at the Dog & Mount Services, located in Mosta and Marsa respectively.

Those who know me know I am OBSESSED with animals, especially dogs. I never had a dog as a pet, but my bestfriend has had around six during our 12-year friendship, and I get along with them really well (except for Satan, hehehehe), and 50% of my Instagram feed is dogs and baby animals, so… yeah.

Anyways, back on topic: we saw all the service dogs there, most of which were super nice, and then two policemen showed us some tricks… and I managed to take a few photos of the lovely dogs in action! The students enjoyed this a lot too.

Afterwards, we went to Marsa to visit the police horses in their stables… and I managed to feed two of the horses! And, while there, they had around five dogs (not police dogs, they were found roaming the streets and the Police there decided to keep all five!) and they were so friendly that none of the children were scared of them. They actually played with them the whole time we were there!


So this is what happened during the month of August! September is going to be a good one from what I can sense, so follow my blog and subscribe to my mailing list to hear about the rest of the months and my other posts!

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The Symptoms of Depression Nobody Talks About

Depression is often very misunderstood. Some believe it means simply being sad and unmotivated, when in reality, the symptoms of depression often have a way of infiltrating everything, from the smallest, most unsuspecting details, to the biggest, most significant aspects. And trying to explain this often feels like trying to hold onto water.

I did a lot of research on this, both as a curious person and a sufferer of mental health illnesses, which is why it took me over two weeks to publish it.

By opening the dialogue and trying to put words to these symptoms, we can continue to deepen our understanding and unveil the misunderstanding that leads to stigma. 

Here is what I found out:

  • Wanting to say what’s on your mind, but can’t explain it, so you just cry because you don’t even know what you’re feeling
  • The exhaustion is equally mental as it is physical. Mental exhaustion from having to apologize for who you are, from trying to convince yourself you deserve to be alive. The physical and mental exhaustion from living in general
  • The black hole felt in the core of being. It sucks in life, motivation, concentration, etc. It’s drowning in the the ocean in the middle of a tempest
  • Not showering, combing your hair, brushing your teeth or changing clothes for a long time. Basically, all hygiene just goes out the window
  • When having an episode but you are not so far gone, and part of your rational mind is telling you there’s no reason to feel that way, yet the dark part of your mind still won’t release its grip
  • You can see and take in your surroundings, but you don’t feel a part of it, as if in a dream
  • When you’re depressed, your ability to feel joy from the things you normally love fades, but the worst days are the days where you are so numb you can barely even feel compassion or empathy
  • Your aching body from staying still all day, whether from laying in bed or just sitting. People think people with depression are just lazy for doing so
  • Disassociation. When you are so depressed and consumed you are no longer yourself. It feels like you are in a videogame. There is no emotional connection to reality
  • When you are so tired you do not manage to get to places in time. It takes you a lot of energy to get up, get ready and go
  • Not knowing that something is wrong in the early stage, and hurting other people with your behavior, and this is of course not done on purpose. This results in people accusing you of the things caused by the illnesses you could not control
  • The amount of migraines you struggle with when you go through depressive episodes which makes dealing with everything a million times harder
  • Anger, agitation, irritability and the feeling of having little to no self-control. This often gets to a point where you cannot bottle it up anymore, and you go down a downward spiral over the simplest, smallest of things because you cannot manage your emotions. Basically, depression is anger turned inwards
  • Thinking depression will be passed on to your children, and you cannot explain this because it is not tangible. Fact: children are more likely to develop mental health problems if their parents experienced them
  • This one is for the ladies: your period reacts to your emotional stress level and depression can cause you so much stress because people don’t understand, your period sometimes either stops or it just keeps going and becomes super irregular and painful
  • You are not able to talk and voice your thoughts because depression makes you believe your opinion does not matter
  • Sometimes you think: am I just exhausted because of my sleep schedule? Or because my mind hasn’t stopped working or stressing for days? That constant need to rationalize your mental health makes the depression symptoms even worse
  • Preoccupation. Depression can make you preoccupy yourself with game apps and simple things I know I can do or change because I feel that I can’t change or control anything else in my life
  • Promiscuity. You get so down and depressed you just want to do anything to feel better, even though you hurt yourself at the same time
  • The internal frustration that you are too scared, guilty or embarrassed to speak out because there is still so much stigma and lack of services, and people who say they are there for you when actually they aren’t. So you just end up drowning in your own thoughts and your depression or anxiety worsens

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  • Paranoia. You think that people are getting annoyed with you and the awful symptoms
  • One minute you’re having fun with your friends and family, and then it hits you hard and begin to shut down without an explanation, nothing to have triggered it. Suddenly you have trouble enjoying yourself with people you are happy around
  • Foggy thinking, making it impossible to concentrate or remember anything
  • Gaining weight because you don’t know what else to do. Or the weight loss because you are just not hungry and don’t have the energy to cook
  • You’re guilty all the time. Hurting friends and family, lying about why you can’t do something or go somewhere, not going to work, staying in bed all day, not taking proper care of your responsibilities… It’s consuming and never ending
  • The uncertainty. You don’t know if you’re going to wake up in the same horrid mood, a worse or better one. Not knowing if one day you’re going to stop functioning. Not knowing whether you will be able to keep your job while keeping your head above water
  • Cancelling plans last minute, having your friends and family think you don’t love then when this occurs constantly
  • You don’t know if your thoughts are real of just effects of depression feeding you lies. You feel betrayed by your own brain and you’re not able to distinguish the true and depressive thoughts
  • The need to put on an act so everyone thinks you are OK, but inside you feel worthless. Sometimes you just want to shout that you are suffering and cannot cope, but you’re made to feel like you are not allowed to show weakness. The exhaustion and the physical pain caused by holding back tears because you have to appear to function well at home, at work and in social situations
  • Not knowing how to explain why you are depressed. People constantly ask you “What’s making you depressed?” or “Why are you depressed?”. It’s hard to keep saying that you have no clue. Because if you knew, you would have loved telling them and fix it, but it’s tough… you just don’t know why. You just are
  • Awareness. Awareness of all the things that are wrong, but the inability to fix any of it
  • The physical and emotional pain and weariness and feeling like you have to apologize for all of it. It’s exhausting!
  • Wanting to put yourself in dangerous situations. Depression isn’t always about laying in your bed, it also can be the urge to be self-destructive. People don’t talk about this because it’s a kind of a grey space. You’re not really suicidal, but you have a kind of urge to put yourself in dangerous situation
  • When you’re typically a super responsible, organized person, and you slowly feel all of it start to unravel. You start showing up late to work, falling behind on tasks, stop eating, start praying that your kids (if you have them) won’t notice and you put on that fake smile and try to keep it all together. Through tears and self-doubt, you pull through for them because they need you
  • Thinking you’re no longer in love with the love of your life. Becoming paranoid of them thinking they’re bad for you. It causes the partner to feel unloved, no matter if you still say ‘I love you,’ they can feel it
  • When every decision, no matter how small or big, becomes an insurmountable burden because of your indecisive mind. Then the guilt of having made a decision that always seems to be the wrong one. And then more guilt that makes you think you are useless to anyone in the world including yourself
  • Selfishness. You tend to isolate yourself and put your depression first, and the rest second. Depression takes the spotlight, and everyone and everything else is in the backseat
  • Constipation. Whether it’s because of something bad you ate, the medication or because all you do is sleep. It takes you weeks to start getting back to normal, and nothing prolongs the cloud in your head than feeling bloated and sick on top of lack of motivation and self-deprecation

It is important to remember that no matter how much you are struggling or how overwhelming your symptoms may feel, you are never alone and you are worthy and deserving of help.

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