Dim the Spotlight on… Kurt Cobain [#9]

THIS IS A SERIES ON MY BLOG WHICH CONSISTS OF ME LOOKING BACK AT ARTISTS I LOVE AND/OR HAVE INFLUENCED ME THAT ARE UNFORTUNATELY NO LONGER ALIVE. THEY MAY NOT HAVE NECESSARILY DIED DUE TO THEIR MENTAL HEALTH ILLNESS/ES, BUT DURING THEIR LIVES THEY SUFFERED FROM ONE OR MORE.

A few months ago, I did a poll on my Instagram and Facebook page about who they want to see me dim the spotlight on, and by far, the landslide win went to Kurt Cobain. I lowkey was hoping it would be him, because the amount of speculations there are surrounding his death, and the heartbreaking childhood of this singer is truly fascinating to research, so let’s get on with it.

(As usual, there will be no particular timeline, but will be pointing out points and interlink them, hope it’s not too confusing!)

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When rock star Kurt Cobain – of Nirvana fame – took his own life on April 5th 1994 at the age of 27, many fans blamed the death on fame itself. This is mostly the case with people who take their own life: fame gets too overwhelming for one person. It may seem glamorous on the outside, but they’re usually miserable on the inside.

Kurt Cobain’s cousin, Beverly Cobain, happens to be a registered nurse devoted to youth suicide prevention, and she believes it had more to do with his history of depression rather than fame itself.

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Like Jimi Hendrix, Janis Joplin, Jim Morrison, and other rock stars who died young before him (and coincidentally also at the age of 27), Cobain has achieved a youthful immortality unlike any other. As the reluctant icon for Seattle’s ’90s grunge rock explosion, Cobain never adjusted to his enormous fame as leader of Nirvana. His suicide is often attributed to his unhappiness at having gone from proud indie rock rebel to mainstream superstar. But it wasn’t that simple. To pinpoint Cobain’s unwanted superstardom as the primary cause of his suicide ignores the fact that Cobain battled mental illness for most of his life.

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Kurt Cobain as a child

He is actually the third member of the Cobain family to take his own life (interesting fact: both previous Cobain’s were males and died of a self-inflicted gunshot wound), and this was a major wake-up call for his cousin, Beverly. By the time of his demise, she had had 15+ years of experience as a mental health professional. Because she had battled depression as a teen, and because it’s a leading cause of death in that age group, she chose to focus on adolescent suicide.

it is important to also note that Kurt Cobain was diagnosed at an early age with Attention Deficit Disorder [ADD] (and also something I have worked with for two years with a student), then later with bipolar disorder [also known as manic-depression].

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Kurt in his pre- to early teens

Bipolar has the same characteristics as major clinical depression, but with mood swings, which present themselves as rage, euphoria, high energy, irritability, distractibility, overconfidence, and others. As Kurt undoubtedly knew, bipolar illness can be very difficult to manage, and the correct diagnosis is very crucial. Unfortunately for him, compliance with the appropriate treatment is also a critical factor. He also wrote a song named Lithium, which is the most common treatment for bipolar, and it is apparently about the disorder.

In an interview, she was asked if she thinks suicide has to do with our life choices rather than psychological diseases unrelated to outside forces, and her answer was:

I believe there is a strong possibility that Kurt would have taken his life no matter what he chose as his career. His risk was very high: untreated bipolar disorder, drug addiction, prior suicides of family members, alcohol, violence and unpredictability in his childhood, poor self-esteem, violence in his married life. Kurt could have been a poster child for risk of suicide.

Also, I think you can never, ever separate the influences of mental health and environmental factors. Our decisions for ourselves arise out of those two factors. One thing about decisions is that you never know if you made the wrong one until after you make it. That said, I expect that if I’m bipolar, responsible for being a role model for millions of kids, high most of the time, and I hate myself, I probably won’t make decisions that will serve me well.

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With band members (in order) Krist Novoselic and Dave Grohl

 

Taking a look at the suicide note he allegedly penned, the thing that stands out the most is the cluttering mess the message has. Such incoherent patterns reflect his battles with both ADHD and bipolar disorder.

His suicide note

Kurt’s battle with depression started at a tender age, he would frequently cut himself out from the world by hiding away in a bedroom cupboard. His feelings about death were evident to anyone who read his journals.

Another incident which may or may not relate to Kurt’s illness stems from an experience he encountered during his adolescence. While wandering around his school, he was confronted by a body belonging to a fellow student, who had just hung himself. The horrific discovery must have had a lasting effect on the teenager who would later joke about having “suicide genes” himself with one of his friends.


Access all Dim the Spotlight posts here, or by clicking them individually below:

Dim the Spotlight on… Chris Cornell [#1]

Dim the Spotlight on… Robin Williams [#2]

Dim the Spotlight on… Chester Bennington [#3]

Dim the Spotlight on… Audrey Hepburn [#4]

Dim the Spotlight on… Marilyn Monroe [#5]

Dim the Spotlight on… Carrie Fisher [#6]

Dim the Spotlight on… Heath Ledger [#7]

Dim the Spotlight on… Dolores O’ Riordan [#8]

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